๐–๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐ข๐Ÿ ๐“๐ก๐ž๐ฒ ๐…๐ข๐ง๐ ๐Ž๐ฎ๐ญ ๐–๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐ˆโ€™๐ฆ ๐‘๐ž๐š๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐‹๐ข๐ค๐ž?

10-7-19 What if they know what I'm Really Like_
Sitting in the front row biting my lip, defeating thoughts ran through my mind. โ€œWho am I to stand and speak before these people? Iโ€™m just a homeschooling mom with fifteen extra pounds (ok, maybe twenty) that I try to hide underneath my baggy shirt. I struggle and I donโ€™t have it all together. What if they find out what Iโ€™m really like?
Shame hides behind thoughts like that, telling us that if people really knew us, they would see that *gasp* we are just ordinary people.
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But God has a track record of taking the ordinary and using them to do something extraordinary, for His glory. King David knew who he wasโ€” a shepherd boy. The runt of the pack, his father did not even mention him as his son when the prophet Samuel asked to see all of his sons.
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๐‡๐ž ๐ฐ๐š๐ฌ ๐š๐ง ๐š๐Ÿ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ๐ญ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ ๐ก๐ญ.
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Oh, how I remember feeling that way as a child, wanting to avoid being seen, and yet being seen is what my heart so desperately craved.
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๐’๐จ๐ฆ๐ž๐›๐จ๐๐ฒ ๐ฌ๐ž๐ž ๐ฆ๐ž ๐š๐ง๐ ๐ฌ๐ž๐ž ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐ˆ ๐ก๐š๐ฏ๐ž ๐ฐ๐จ๐ซ๐ญ๐ก.
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But instead, I was seen and ridiculed . . . when I was given the โ€œugly awardโ€ and a comb as my prize at a Girl Scouts sleepover . . . when I was a chubby batgirl running to get bats . . . when people threatened to beat me up . . . when I was the last one picked on a team.
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All of these hurts I carried forward without realizing it. Yet in this moment of feeling so conspicuous as I spoke to the precious women God had called me to speak to, I realized that nothing defined meโ€”not my past, my failures or my successes. And my weaknesses? They qualified me.
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๐ˆ๐ญ ๐ฐ๐š๐ฌ๐งโ€™๐ญ ๐š๐›๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฆ๐ž, ๐š๐Ÿ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐š๐ฅ๐ฅ. ๐ˆ๐ญ ๐ฐ๐š๐ฌ ๐จ๐ค๐š๐ฒ ๐ข๐Ÿ ๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ฒ ๐Ÿ๐จ๐ฎ๐ง๐ ๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฐ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐ˆ ๐ฐ๐š๐ฌ ๐ซ๐ž๐š๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ž.
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As Nathan the prophet spoke of Davidโ€™s present and future, David was overwhelmed by Godโ€™s favor and his humble position:
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โ€œThen King David went in and sat before the Lord and prayed, โ€˜Who am I, O Lord God, and what is my family, that you have brought me this far? And now, O God, in addition to everything else, you speak of giving your servant a lasting dynasty! You speak as though I were someone very great, O Lord God! What more can I say to you about the way you have honored me? You know what your servant is really like.โ€™โ€ 1 Chronicles 17:16-18 NLT
๐๐ž๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ก๐จ๐ง๐จ๐ซ๐ž๐ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐š ๐ก๐ฎ๐ฆ๐›๐ฅ๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐ .
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We know our weaknesses and sometimes choose to be limited and defined by them. We know that God is the One Who deserves all the praise. And yet He shares praise, removes our shame and replaces it with honor:
1 ๐‘ช๐’‰๐’“๐’๐’๐’Š๐’„๐’๐’†๐’” 17:8 (๐‘ต๐‘ณ๐‘ป)
โ€œ๐‘ฐ ๐’‰๐’‚๐’—๐’† ๐’ƒ๐’†๐’†๐’ ๐’˜๐’Š๐’•๐’‰ ๐’š๐’๐’– ๐’˜๐’‰๐’†๐’“๐’†๐’—๐’†๐’“ ๐’š๐’๐’– ๐’‰๐’‚๐’—๐’† ๐’ˆ๐’๐’๐’†, ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐‘ฐ ๐’‰๐’‚๐’—๐’† ๐’…๐’†๐’”๐’•๐’“๐’๐’š๐’†๐’… ๐’‚๐’๐’ ๐’š๐’๐’–๐’“ ๐’†๐’๐’†๐’Ž๐’Š๐’†๐’” ๐’ƒ๐’†๐’‡๐’๐’“๐’† ๐’š๐’๐’–๐’“ ๐’†๐’š๐’†๐’”, ๐‘ต๐’๐’˜ ๐‘ฐ ๐’˜๐’Š๐’๐’ ๐’Ž๐’‚๐’Œ๐’† ๐’š๐’๐’–๐’“ ๐’๐’‚๐’Ž๐’† ๐’‚๐’” ๐’‡๐’‚๐’Ž๐’๐’–๐’” ๐’‚๐’” ๐’‚๐’๐’š๐’๐’๐’† ๐’˜๐’‰๐’ ๐’‰๐’‚๐’” ๐’†๐’—๐’†๐’“ ๐’๐’Š๐’—๐’†๐’… ๐’๐’ ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’†๐’‚๐’“๐’•๐’‰.โ€
David. The forgotten son. A shepherd boy. One of the least esteemed positions in that culture, made famous by God. But God knows what He is doing. This gift of favor and fame was not wasted. He knew that Davidโ€™s heart was after His and what David would do with that praise โ€“ offer it back to God for His glory:
1 ๐‘ช๐’‰๐’“๐’๐’๐’Š๐’„๐’๐’†๐’” 17: 20, 24(๐’‚) (๐‘ต๐‘ณ๐‘ป)
โ€œ๐‘ถ ๐‘ณ๐’๐’“๐’…, ๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’“๐’† ๐’Š๐’” ๐’๐’ ๐’๐’๐’† ๐’๐’Š๐’Œ๐’† ๐’š๐’๐’–. ๐‘พ๐’† ๐’‰๐’‚๐’—๐’† ๐’๐’†๐’—๐’†๐’“ ๐’†๐’—๐’†๐’ ๐’‰๐’†๐’‚๐’“๐’… ๐’๐’‡ ๐’‚๐’๐’๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’“ ๐‘ฎ๐’๐’… ๐’๐’Š๐’Œ๐’† ๐’€๐’๐’–! ๐‘จ๐’๐’… ๐’Ž๐’‚๐’š ๐’€๐’๐’–๐’“ ๐’๐’‚๐’Ž๐’† ๐’ƒ๐’† ๐’†๐’”๐’•๐’‚๐’ƒ๐’๐’Š๐’”๐’‰๐’†๐’… ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’‰๐’๐’๐’๐’“๐’†๐’… ๐’‡๐’๐’“๐’†๐’—๐’†๐’“ ๐’”๐’ ๐’•๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐’†๐’—๐’†๐’“๐’š๐’๐’๐’† ๐’˜๐’Š๐’๐’ ๐’”๐’‚๐’š, โ€˜๐‘ป๐’‰๐’† ๐‘ณ๐’๐’“๐’… ๐’๐’‡ ๐‘ฏ๐’†๐’‚๐’—๐’†๐’โ€™๐’” ๐‘จ๐’“๐’Ž๐’Š๐’†๐’”, ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐‘ฎ๐’๐’… ๐’๐’‡ ๐‘ฐ๐’”๐’“๐’‚๐’†๐’, ๐’Š๐’” ๐‘ฐ๐’”๐’“๐’‚๐’†๐’โ€™๐’” ๐‘ฎ๐’๐’…!โ€™
David sought to use any fame, any platform that God gave him for others to know God as the one true God. The Apostle Paul also knew his own shortcomings but was used mightily by God. A murderer of Godโ€™s people, he was not exactly a candidate to be Godโ€™s spokesperson:
2 ๐‘ช๐’๐’“๐’Š๐’๐’•๐’‰๐’Š๐’‚๐’๐’” 12:9 (๐‘ช๐‘ฌ๐‘ฝ)
โ€œ๐‘ฉ๐’–๐’• ๐’‰๐’† ๐’“๐’†๐’‘๐’๐’Š๐’†๐’…, โ€˜๐‘ด๐’š ๐’ˆ๐’Š๐’‡๐’• ๐’๐’‡ ๐’–๐’๐’…๐’†๐’”๐’†๐’“๐’—๐’†๐’… ๐’ˆ๐’“๐’‚๐’„๐’† ๐’Š๐’” ๐’‚๐’๐’ ๐’š๐’๐’– ๐’๐’†๐’†๐’…. ๐‘ด๐’š ๐’‘๐’๐’˜๐’†๐’“ ๐’Š๐’” ๐’”๐’•๐’“๐’๐’๐’ˆ๐’†๐’”๐’• ๐’˜๐’‰๐’†๐’ ๐’š๐’๐’– ๐’‚๐’“๐’† ๐’˜๐’†๐’‚๐’Œ.โ€™ ๐‘บ๐’ ๐’Š๐’‡ ๐‘ช๐’‰๐’“๐’Š๐’”๐’• ๐’Œ๐’†๐’†๐’‘๐’” ๐’ˆ๐’Š๐’—๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’Ž๐’† ๐’‰๐’Š๐’” ๐’‘๐’๐’˜๐’†๐’“, ๐‘ฐ ๐’˜๐’Š๐’๐’ ๐’ˆ๐’๐’‚๐’…๐’๐’š ๐’ƒ๐’“๐’‚๐’ˆ ๐’‚๐’ƒ๐’๐’–๐’• ๐’‰๐’๐’˜ ๐’˜๐’†๐’‚๐’Œ ๐‘ฐ ๐’‚๐’Ž.โ€
We donโ€™t have to hide the โ€œugly partsโ€ of who we think we are or look to other fallen people to give us worth. Pride tells us to cover our weaknesses in shame. But it is in professing our weaknesses that we find the incredible freedom to just be ourselves. No more performing to try and measure up to what God has already attained. And self-consciousnessย disappears when we become conscious of who we are in Christ.
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Our God knows what we are really like and accepts us. There is no need to worry about someone finding out the โ€œreal dealโ€; that behind all the favor is just a weak vessel and a good God who deserves all of the praise. And when God honors me, I will gladly move aside to let Him receive all of the glory so others will know what He is really like.

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